Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Tiny Elephant

Explicit bits of conversation weave in and out, moth-eaten in the fabric of us. Casual mentions of things to come - hiking in Cusco, grazing horses through the kitchen window, sunning on the Marbella coast, entrepreneurial wine bars...

Let go.
Just breathe.
Live now.

Dreamy paradigms prove difficult to live by when flirting with the future feels a little like lying. A deeply grooved proboscis wraps around my heart and tightens its grip when I insinuate someday. Ashed gray uncertainty deftly tugs me backwards when I slip.

Sans plans for the subsequent, what's the point?
The sex is good.
At what price am I lying to myself?

He wants to stay. Born and raised. And hell - we all know what I think of the snow.

Will I break his heart, too?

Oh, Hush now. We have weekend plans.



12 comments:

  1. This was wonderfully written...was it all based on true/current events or was there a splash of fiction? I loved this.

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    1. 100% true and current
      thank you
      xx

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  2. So intriguing! Go with these wonderful, gooey feelings.

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  3. dont let anyone else define your future life is too short
    no one wants an elephant no matter how small
    xx

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  4. " Dreamy paradigms prove difficult to live by when flirting with the future feels a little like lying."

    Lulu, the way in which you write is inspiring. The flow of the words you weave together do so perfectly. It's what keeps me reading. The subject matter it's relevant to me, too. But the writing...

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    1. thank you.
      that is one of my favorite lines, too.
      xx

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  5. live for now, but don't forget that now becomes tomorrow too. i hope you are happy lulu <3

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  6. How difficult it is to always live in the moment and not allow our memories to keep us in the past or our dreams in the future... not always easy but worth it:)

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  7. "Dreamy paradigms prove difficult to live by when flirting with the future feels a little like lying" is absolutely a wonderful phrase.
    Beautifully written, Lulu! I could sense genuine feelings in every line of it.

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  8. i recently came upon a conversation my brother had with my live-in ex, where he stated his confusion and disgust on why i always "do this", and walk away, and break their hearts. better to break than be broken. go go go

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  9. I adore Pablo Neruda <3

    http://thepersephonecomplex.blogspot.co.uk/

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