Friday, March 15, 2013

Dissolution

His insecurities manifested themselves leisurely, with lies emerging one by one like bloated bodies in the Mississippi. Each individual spoonful he lifted to my lips tasted most bitter, yet bite sized and always served with an alibi shooter. Nourished on deceit, I did not notice how thin I had become. Compromise. The slivers of a once perfect self shaved and contoured to compliment another person. Edges rounded, curves adjusted. Microscopic pieces so slowly eroded away that I could not recognize my own skeleton at the end of the day, piled there at his feet.

But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you.
David Levithan, The Lover's Dictionary



18 comments:

  1. So rawfully melancholy. I fell in love with that passage the instant I read it. I often feel like I am somebody completely different than the person I was an hour ago, yesterday, or last week. It gives me pause to wonder if we can notice these changes in ourselves and in others, significant or otherwise, can we stop them from happening? Would we want to? Or do they only happen because we do not see the transformation, only the 'piled skeleton'?
    love always,
    xoxo

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    1. I could have stopped the changes, I think. The problem was that I chose not to.. the lies were so small at first.

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  2. The picture goes so perfectly with this passage...powerful.

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  3. I'm not sure I should enjoy that as much as I do. Perhaps it's because I get it. You somehow turned something dark into something beautiful in those photos.

    I dig.

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  4. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you. ~
    David Levithan, The Lover's Dictionary

    Wow, this quote touched me LuLu... I feel this about my David... it was my mistake to trust him... If I can't trust him... not sure who I could trust in the future...

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  5. The quote summarizes the feeling so well. I have felt this way as well, you feel so stupid, but it could never be your fault to trust someone.

    Xx
    /S / http:// mydarlingsolitude.blogspot.com

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    1. You are exactly right. Whether or not it was true, I felt stupid to the core. Stupid girl.

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  6. super cool blog, let's follow each other girlie! xx

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  7. 'Breakfast after 10' so perfect in so many ways! xx

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    1. I thought the same of 'Poison & Wine' the first time I read it, too... For I cannot resist either of those things.
      xx

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  8. powerful. you're beautiful inside and out.

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  9. adore that quote, adore you. don't adore the feelings in this, but adore the way you are able to express them.

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    1. The Lovers Dictionary is full of little quotes like that. It's really a simple book, but to read it with hindsight is like chatting with an old friend.

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  10. to me its like a puzzle, i want to see the whole picture, although i make my guesses, i want to see the whle movie, read the novel.. read it all. or just read more.

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    1. If I tried to sit long enough to tell it in novel format.. well I might just leave it all for dead.

      xx

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    2. i bet it would be a bestseller

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