Friday, November 23, 2012

mundane

I used to love nights like this. 

After dinner, when the house was suddenly quiet and we stood alone together in the kitchen, surveying the mess: Purple-stained wine glasses clustered in the center of the table and dirty dinner dishes piled up in the sink. 

"That was fun, " he would say. 
"Yes. I do think everyone had a good time." 

I could taste the bourbon in his kiss.

We would get most of it cleaned up before falling into bed, feeling like such grown-ups. We were married now with grown-up things like matching dinnerware and crystal. We had married friends and threw grown-up dinner parties. We slept in a queen-sized sleigh bed we'd bought together and had a second bedroom that we called "the office."



Tonight it's just me, leaning against the sink, negotiating counter space for the dirty dishes and crystal.


10 comments:

  1. Exactly what I'm afraid of and what's impending for me.

    +To Me It Matters+

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  2. To do things by yourself must feel different...

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  3. Being a grown-up scared the hemm out of me, I just don't want all those things.

    /Avy

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    1. It was supposed to be self-created stability.

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  4. i have to second Avy here... i wonder if this could turn me into a tragic figure in about a decade from now. but maybe there is another way, i can force it upon me now, and maybe we cannot create these thing ourselves, they have to come naturally..
    your words always make me think..
    xx

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    1. sry , i meant "I CANNOT force it upon me"... and thingS
      sry sry my typing is really bad!

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  5. time, sweet time, long chunks of minutes drifting into hours, and then days, and then eventually that time releases your thoughts and you experience freedom joyfully.

    I don't know what I'm saying. I'm alone. What do I know.

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  6. Ohhhh LuLu.. You do know how I feel.. not many people do... they just want me to get over it :'( .... I would if I could.... :-(

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